aku rindu

aku rindu masa itu
dalam rumah papan kampung
bising hujan menghentam atap zink
malap cahaya mentol pijar
dengan bau minyak tanah dari pelita kaki

sambil minum kopi o pekat
panas dicicah biskut kering empat segi
dengan atok dan opah
sumpah aku rindu ni semua
dan aku rindu mereka dua
al-fatihah dengan air mata.

rindu ini kuat sangat

afna16122012

Blessed Friday Night

Finishing reciting Yaasin after maghrib prayer today,  i just realised that my Quran recitation is quite rusty.
Oh my.
After all these time, i read it very poorly.

I really need a serious improvement on this,
a-san

life planning

having to spend the days without my netbook which i lent to zamm for purposes, i had a lot of time to do a lot of thinking. basically because i was bored and have nothing else to do other than thinking.

so i thought about my basic life plans that i have been constructing since i finished schooling.
they are simple actually.

#1 finish my degree study
#2 get posted to a school as nearest as i could to my hometown
#3 three years teaching until confirmation
#4 search for any scholarship with KPM to further my studies oversea, preferably in UK*
#5 get a master
#6 continue teaching, be a lecturer if get the chance
#7 continue studying while teaching and specialize either in English Literature or Linguistics*
#8 get married in between #2 and #7
#9 collect my own assets starting from #2
#10 travel around with my significant other*
#11 have my own family
#12 continue studies
#13 earn, spend, save and invest enough money to retire comfortably by late 50s
#14 ...
#15 get closer to God (THIS IS A MUST!!!)

*subjects due to change

well, that's about it. what i want to do for the rest of my life.
but, for knowing myself real good than other people, i think the reality will turn out less interesting than what i have planned. lol


not a good planner,
a-san

these happen on me most of the time

#1

#2

inspired by the homies,

a-san

p.s. pardon me for the incorrect usage of memes. im no good at this hehe

a message from the past

so today i spent about 15 mins cleaning my personal cabinet yang dah berhabuk teruk. that cabinet was left for about years sebab last skali pakai buat simpan buku berapa tahun lepas. there where i kept my piles of spm stuffs and a bulk of uitm stuffs that sent me down to memory lane :')

the best thing, masa tengah kemas2, i found a stash of sampul duit raya that i don't remember keeping of. habit aku dulu simpan sampul duit raya kosong lepas dapat tu. meaning that sampul2 kosong tu semua dah bertahun duduk dalam kabinet tu, sekarang tinggal nak buang jelah.dunno why, gatal tangan pegi bukak sampul2 tu semua, 
homaigadddd ada duit ._.

haha. cool! aku tengah sesak duit ni and cukup malas nak pegi pekan cari atm machine.

and that remembered me, masa budak sekolah dulu rasanya aku saja simpan duit tu semua kot2 nak pakai masa takde duit. lepastu terus terlupa duit tu ada aku simpan dalam kabinet.

so i puji that budak-sekolah-me "wahh anis, that was a good thought" and pat myself on the shoulder. hahah.

^___________________^


yay,
a-san

How I Handle My Examinations

These are the few bits of how i deal with examinations this semester.

Warning: DO NOT TRY THIS UNLESS YOU'RE READY TO DEAL WITH THE CONSEQUENCES


Before:
1. Procrastinating at my best. No matter how long the gaps are between each paper, in the end it will always be the night before the paper that the books and notes be read.

2. Chuck marathon. You see, less than a week I have finished watching Chuck from the first season till the third. All complete episodes. Not leaving any boring episode not watched.

3. Sleep. No. Hibernate.

4. Put all the efforts when doing assignments because they are the backups.


During:
1. Sit on the designated place.

2. Keep calm and answer all the questions.

3. Time's up! Pack all the stuffs.

4. Leave the examination hall.

5. NEVER talk to anyone about the examination ever again to avoid heartbreak.


After:
1. EAT. Because a hungry man is an angry man.

2. Sleep. All the energy stored has been used up by the brain. Penat woi nak fikir. So, it's time to recharge.

3. Realised that the paper was answered carelessly.

4. Do not freak out.

5. Hope all is well and oh, now put all the hope in the previously done assignments cause obviously i will barely pass the difficult papers.

matilaaaa

(-________-")

imma dead meat,

a-san

nombor dan angka

sekali dulu tu ikutkan aku betul2 lupa hari tu hari ulang tahun aku kalau tak bukan celcom yang hantar ucap selamat pastu bagi free calls. dan ikutkan, aku tak rasa nak sambut pun ulang tahun aku tiap tahun. dan aku rasa tu cuma perubahan pada nombor bila kau nak isi maklumat dan cuma buat kau rasa satu tahun lagi dekat dengan mati.


mula berhenti sambut ulang tahun sendiri dari kecik dulu bila pun aku dah tak ingat. nak cerita kat orang bila aku lahir pun rasa macam tak ada signifikan. lagi menarik macam tu kot. biar kau sendiri fikir nak panggil aku guna adik ke, kak ke, hoi ke, apa pun bolehhh (jangan panggil aku yang bukan2 sudah lah)


tahun ni rasa lain. ulang tahun aku kali ni selalu main dalam kepala otak. ulang tahun kali ni digit depan aku dah tukar. tapi aku taknak nombor tu tukar. aku rasa tak cukup sedia lagi nak jadi dewasa.
kalau ikutkan aku taknak jadi dewasa.
jadi dewasa tu susah.
jadi dewasa tu dah pernah aku rasa sikit dulu.
jadi dewasa tu banyak tanggungjawab.
jadi dewasa tu banyak halnya.


pokoknya, tiap tahun aku tak ada keinginan nak sambut ulang tahun pun.

tapi terima kasih kawan, ulang tahun yang lepas korang buat aku terharu. pandawani cakap kat aku terharu tu ada rasa nak nangeh sikit2. memang rasa nak nangeh sikit2 haritu :')

yang kena ignore sampai kena kunci kat luar dgn aku masa malam ulang tahun lepas tu aku mintak ampunnn sangat2. yang tu aku mengaku apa aku buat tu agak melampau.


close your eyes. make a wish. blow the candles,
a-san

time

Like the climate,
you'll never know what weather you'll get
No denying you're the habit that i can't quit


It's only a matter of time,
a-san

by your side

I may not be bright as the sun
but on gloomy days I'll shine you to yays

I may not be gorgeous as them you see in telly
but no monster I am, you can see

I may not be good as a lady
but no good a plastic me will do to thee

I may not be pleasant as what you think of me
but to annoy you, something that I cannot not do

I may not be honest as a prophet
but no lies I'll tell you even they ain't pretty to be told

I was once shattered like pieces of glasses
but you mended it bit by bit

I am no Juliet
neither I am Jani

You can be my empire
but I won't be your throne
because by your side, there I'll be

afna01102012

:'(

rindu ayah rindu mak rindu shira rindu opai rindu farha rindu amad rindu mican rindu momoe rindu ribbon rindu nugget wuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuuuuuuuu nak balik rumah T________T


a-san

tumpul

Banyak sebenarnya yang dia keluhkan
Cuma dia tak pernah suarakan hadapan aku
Marahnya dia pada aku
Kecewanya dia pada aku
Banyak.

Aku yang payah membantu bila diperlukan
Aku yang tak pernah memenuhi bila diharapkan
Aku yang selalunya tak mengotakan apa yang dijanji.

Aku tahu, apa yang dilihatnya pada aku
Yang gemarnya seronok saja
Yang sukanya berfoya
Yang hebatnya bila membuang masa.
Tu semua aku lah tu.

Alasan aku,
Aku belum mahu berhenti seronok
Sebabnya aku takut dengan tanggungjawab itu
yang memang dah sepatutnya aku penuhi sejak azali pun
Hah. Itu dia. Ceritanya aku elak dari tanggungjawab aku pada dia.
Dan jadinya, dia tak ada seorang yang dekat untuk dia pandang tinggi. Buat contoh.
"along" aku cuma gelar dia buat aku saja. Tanggungjawabnya aku buat dunno.

Malam lepas, sembang kami buat timbul rasa bersalah aku pada dia.
Sedang dia sedih itu, mahunya aku.
Mahu lihat aku, borak dengan dia.
Itupun tak dapat aku penuhkan.
Cuma nota-nota ringkas dapat aku hantar.
Serba salah sungguh sampai saat ini.

Kamu, jangan sedih-sedih lagi ye.

along taktau nak gembirakan kamu macam mana,
a-san

Dia Fikir Dia Bagus (rant on dat teacher)

"No no nooo. This is not an article. An article should be at least 5 pages minimum. I want you to find on the net, 10 different articles, each with 5 pages minimum".
pale hotak kau. 
ingat ktorang majoring sociology apa? 
kau nak datang masuk kelas pun malas, lepas tu nak expect kitorang buat kerja kau betul2?
sedangkan guru lama yang aku respek sebab ilmu dia pun kau perlekehkan, ingat kau nak aku anggap cara kau tu betul?
wakluu.

CCH please ajar LGSP balik >.<

jangan tegur cela aku. bukannya aku tak tahu

kenapa perlu lewat Ramadhan ini yang hampir menjelang Aidilfitri, parut-parut yang lama ditambah dengan luka yang baru sedangkan cela yang masih ada pun belum hilang lagi.
cela yang jelas boleh kau pandang dari muka ini.
cela yang pabila dilihat manusia, itu yang jadi pembuka kata mereka menyapa.
cela yang buat aku tunduk malu bila dalam selaut manusia.
belakangan ini selalu aku fikir, mana silap aku sampai begitu sekali celanya.


sedih bila difikirkan,
a-san

ouiii, vee haz been going to Pantai Teluk Bayu! :D

Getting there

the lot of us. minus the guys. 

rented a car, sebab the others yg bawak kereta sendiri semua dah penuh -.-'
apparently, moi is the only girl in the gang that can drive manual transmission car
bangga ah jugak. hikhik
(okay, that's a total fib. never EVER let me drive any manual transmission car if you don't want to get the worst experience in a car for your whole life)

**********

preparation. 
kalau kat kampung, kita panggil merewang 
(tapi masa kenduri jelah)

Mawad, project manager

**********

the NOMS! aarghh!

taadaa! pencuci mulut paling senang

Atiq's catch of the day.
ada kau pegi barbeque makan lobstaah? non hadooo

pre-baked sausages

ayam hangett

okay, dah siap. let's feed the sharkss!

**********

and now, let's meet the sharks :D

yg tu rumet, kalau tgk betul2 ada rupa neelopa la sikit

tiga ni, tiga di mana2 jugak

okay, now there they are. half of all the guys

cheeky ira.
the one yang bertanggungjawab menghidupkan our scene.
anytime

my favourite
L-R: ira, wida, ezzah, jimm, ina, san, sol, atiq, thiru, mawad, yana, pah, najwaa, awien, fatin

this one made me lol

wanted to bury a person alive. but he's too big

Hazwan Merman
by san, awien, kak ezzah

Hazwan Merman + kak ezzah

the class' lovebirds

motif gambar; tempted tgk helmet pah yang ada corak mcm whoaa

atiq omeii, adik angkat awi rafael, peminat tegar justin bibiaq, kipas susah mati one direction.
seriously (cuali yg 2nd statement tu)

lepas mandi laut, diorg macam org tk pernah jumpa makanan

**********

k. dah. jom balik.

pit stop last; Raja Burger. taktau mcam mana diorg boleh lapar lagi lepas semua tu.
huh -.-'

**********

yours truly,
a-san

EVERYTIME! lmao

A Midsummer Night's Dream

so the past weeks were quite a fest over here in Georgetown. Lots of events happening around the town. It was George Town Festival 2012 by the way.

okay, cut it short, last Tuesday on the 10th, i went to a Shakespearean play which was performed at Penang Performing Arts Center (penangpac).  this version of A Midsummer Night's Dream was by a team of Malaysian academics and performers that presented a unique version of the world-famous comedic tale of runaway lovers in a forest on a midsummer's night and the magically induced amorous mayhem that arises from domestic quarrels in the fairy world. 

actors delivered Shakespeare's words, tapi set design, props, music dgn choreography reflected local beliefs. okay, fikir, vintage Shakespeare meets quantum physics in a wayang kulit-inspired fairy world. haaa

at first ktorang tak expect pun that we will be going anywhere minggu tu. but then Mr Hussein came into the class and offered us an affordable price for the tickets. so, that's how it came about.


the problem about it was that there was no transportation for us to go as far as Straits Quay for the lot of us and ergo, ktorang kena mohon for college's transportation. and for that to happen kena ada orang yang jadi coordinator to manage all the stuffs dengan pejabat. and with all that kind of fuss, nobody yang nak pun jadi that coordinator (even me!). idk how it happened that suddenly me, san, orang yang paling takkan volunteer untuk urus apa2 pun dalam college - ever, boleh jadi the kepala for this -.-''


after that, merasa lah all the tiredness of coordinating such out-of-college-activity, yang kena naik turun pejabat, keluar masuk department jumpa lecturer, watching the lecturers gaduh2 taknak take charge on us, tunggu the Madams habis meeting till late Friday afternoon sampai kejar2 nak balik petang tu (sorry MA) lol, jumpa ketua jabatan dgn lecturer2 lain just to get their signatures for the forms.


anyways, it all went well, we managed to go there, and watched the play. can't say the play was really good tapi boleh laa, i laughed a few times. mislina mustaffa did a good job in playing Titania. i say that i prefer tengok dia on stage play rather than on screen. the one that she acted in Mukhsin tak terasa apa pun. and that guy, Sheikh Rahman, maighaddd he's so handsome(!). i thought he was a japs or american-chinese or else. skali nama Sheikh Rahman. aduhh. haha


and no, i don't have any pictures during the play. i was trying to concentrate and understand the play kott :P

L-R: jimm, kiah, odah, awien, mdm mars, san, faris, thiru, mdm choong chin ching
(odah was trying to make a fashion statement there lol)

and the rest of these that i took from ISC page

adieu!,
a-san