Life; 2010 Edition : The Ending

satu tahun yang menarik,
satu tahun yang pahit,
satu tahun yang bahagia,
satu tahun yang perit,


2010 sampai sini sahaja. bukan satu tahun yang agak bagus untuk aku. kalau boleh, nak aku ulang semula.

Life: Should have one big red RESET button

"For last year's words belongs to last year's language

and next year's words await another voice.

and to make and end is to make a beginning."

- T.S Eliot, "Little Gidding"

selamat tahun baru 2011,

a-san

I am so grateful to have you in my life.

My favourite lagu. Suka lagu ni, since idk when. Lagi suka sangat bila you bagi lagu ni. Sekarang pun sama lagi. Dengar lagu ni mesti teringat kat you. Still love you, but that was it and it is better for us to be like this rite? Redha jelah :'(




(It's hard) Letting you go,
a-san

tag #005, More Life In A Tramp Vest

1.Put your music library on shuffle.

2.For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3.You must write that song title as the answer to the question, no matter how silly it sounds! Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough.

4.Ok, go!

5.When you're done, tag people in this note, and make sure to tag the person who sent you this. The answer to #20 is the Title of your note.

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1. If someone says, “Is this okay?” you say

Wonderwall 

2. How would you describe yourself?

Animal hahahhaha.lmao

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?

Sellout

4. How do you feel today?

errr Puisi Tentang Seseorang??

5. What is your life’s purpose?

We No Speak Americano. wth. haha

6. What's your motto?

So Far Away. uhuh. yeahh.

7. What do your friends think of you?

omg. I'm a Mardy Bum D: 

8. What do you think of your parents?

This Shit Getz Old. oh my :S 

9. What do you think about very often? 

Selamat Malam 

10. What is 2 + 2?

Turn It Off

11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?

Looks Like Chaplin. heheh :D

12. What do you think of the person you love?

Local Boy In the Photograph. ouww yeahhh XD

13. What is your life story?

My Immortal. wow. that kinda impossible lol

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?

Lovesick. in fact, i am rite now :(

15. What do you think of when you see the person you love?

My Heart, and yes you really are, sayang :)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?

I'll Kill Her. that's irony. lol

17. What will they play at your funeral?

okay, this question is wrong for me. but wth, Last Night it is

18. What is your biggest fear?

uhuh, Ku Bukan Aku

19. What is your biggest secret?

Love Like Woe :D

20. What will you post this as?

More Life In A Tramp Vest

tag : MOSHibot., Abareeeeef :), syahira zaini, Ila, Kumbang, eyla yunus, sheilalieya, Zackery Z, Aziela Samsuddin, Sharkcount, tyra kamaruddin

i hate #013

i hate crying in front of the people that i could cry in front of


- i don't cry easily in front of other people except for my parents, i-chi and my man. hate it because it makes me feel so weak in front of them.

i hate #005

i hate when things doesn't go as i planned


- just think of it, you've planned everything very well hoping that it will go on smoothly but suddenly something happened and ruining all of em. haihh.

bouncing

Mak, can i have a trampoline that can fit into our front yard? thee heeee :D


yang macam ni perhaps?
 >>>
boleh la nanti nak buat that 360backflip. haha




i'm bored deh,
a-san

Aku Pasti Mati

"Hiduplah Sesuka hatimu,

Sesungguhnya kamu pasti mati.

Cintai siapa saja yang kamu senangi,

Sesungguhnya kamu pasti akan berpisah dengannya

Lakukan apa saja yang kamu kehendaki,

Sesungguhnya kamu akan memperoleh balasannya"

First and foremost

I hereby will start blabbering, talking craps, talking shits, babbling, and whatsoever verbs that you could relate with this action of mine just to have a better feeling inside of me. This brain of mine could no longer withstand too much topsyturvydom from all around me. I am still the same person which most of you see as the heartless, ruthless and talk-less with a killing face girl (a side of me that you wouldn't understand). This kind of entry is just another foolish yet annoying kind of entry where I could pour out the bitchy side of me. You might find this is unimportant and not a matter of yours. I am doing this for myself because this is my shiz.




sincerely,
a-san

Outcome nanti

Subject : a-san
Course : accountancy
Target : final exam
Duration : one semester


..........


Input


Weekdays : Bangun pagi tiap-tiap hari, pergi kelas, attend lectures, tidur dalam kelas. Lunch with friends, after lunch go back to college, take a rest or nap. Then, go to afternoon class, attend lectures, playing and fooling around, after class pergi main pool dengan girl friends. 5pm balik kolej, rehat, chill out, mandi. At night, keluar pergi dinner, group talk, homework (kadang-kadang), lepak kat kafe, lepak luar. Around 11pm or 1am, balik kolej, clean myself, rehat, on the phone. 3am, tidur.


Weekends : Balik rumah or if kat kolej, do nothing hoping that time will pass quickly or go out lepak with classmates.




Output


Flunked during final exams.




What to expect?


Result this Dec 10, 2010




I'm a dead meat,
a-san

Jangan ingat kau bagus sangat (rant on that kid)

Macam celaka la perangai kau! Nak sangat jadi the queen bee. Tiap kali pun nak kena ikut cakap kau je. Aku punya cakap tak boleh laa? Fuck youuuuuuu!


In hatred,
a-san

tag #004

Tagged by Mrs Jepa. Actually benda ni dah lama aku patut buat, but that time aku ignore je. Terus lupa but then Sheila ohlalaa posted hers, so baru aku teringat nak buat benda ni. lol.

25 true facts of me. enjoy ;)

1. I hate clowns. Yepp. Oh. No, I DESPISE them.

2. People say I'm heartless and ruthless. Lack of humane.

3. I sleep without any pillow under my head but there are a lot of pillows surrounding me while sleeping.

4. I don't fancy where im studying now, but people keep persuading me to stay.

5. Call me a nerd, but I really love it when I spend my time during Brass Band UiTM training hours.

6. Government clinic made me wait for three more years before I could wear braces.

7. I love sour foodstuffs.

8. I like to lay back and chill out at night, stargazing :)

9. I fell down from my grandma's upper storey through a window when I was one.

10. I'm not a good role model to my brothers and sisters.

11. I can bake but I can't cook, too bad.

12. I really love a guy by the name Raja Idris Putera so much.

13. When I was a school kid, I always thought guys playing snares are cool. lol

14. I'm clumsy.

15. I love the feeling of being hugged from the back by him.

16. I don't get allowances like you guys, so don't ever think you can come by and ask me to go out with you go here and there. 

17. I'm not good with my parents, but still I do love them.

18. I eat a lot. Really, a lot. If you don't believe me, just ask the people who usually dine with me, but it seems like I hardly gain more weight.

19. To be honest, I never ever try to smoke. People never believes me on that because they say, "Bibir kau gelap kot. Lagipun kalau tengok perangai kau, tipu ah kalau kau kata tak penah smoke" heh -.-

20. I am not friendly, but once you've become a friend of mine, you'll know how gila I am. 

21. I whine a lot. Not good.

22. I love watching Desperate Housewives with my dad. Yupp, my dad :)

23. I can't dance. Kayu. 

24. I have two best girl friends and one best buddy, Afiqah, Sheila Alya and Ashraff Albakri, over there at campus. I spent a lot of time with the three of them together. 

25. You may think that I don't care about you but the truth is I do.

Tributes

  fiqa  sheila  ashraff  bella  nureen  arin  mimie  zackery  fella  baem  cok  dayah  fae  miera  wawa  husna  wanraf  farah  umair  aliff  am  wanlumut  fakhry  aten  amee  kelly  pamy  man  aina  yamin  syafiq  wanie  nazrin  zul  panjang  atoq  ain  billy  nene

gonna miss yall,

a-san

currently i'm in no mood for blogging in what-so-ever conditions i'm dealing with.

yours sincerely,

a-san

disebalik muka tipu aku senyum lebar kat orang :)

Sesuatu menyedarkan aku malam tadi. Lebih kepada seseorang daripada sesuatu itu. 


Isi penting daripada kesedaran itu;
- Semua orang punya hati mesti nak kena jaga
- Hak korang lagi penting daripada aku
- Biar aku susah, janji kau orang senang, takpe.
- Aku dah biasa orang buat macam ni kat aku, takpe.
- Bila tiba kat aku, jawapannya, takpe.
- Oh ya, semua benda kita kongsi kan. Lupa. Takpe2.
- Herdik, tengking, aku dah biasa, takpe.
- Aku heartless, buat macam mana pun, takpe.


Solusi untuk masa depan;
- Aku dah nak pergi, bagus untuk kau orang.
- Killer face ni dah takde lagi nanti, senang la kau orang.
- Suatu hari aku rasa aku kena tadah tangan kat kau orang menganjing mintak simpati, "tolong. tolong...bagi la aku sikit respek. sikit je. aku tak mintak banyak. aku pun nak merasa jugak rasa orang respek kat aku"


Feedbacks pada aku;
- Aku sedar aku sangat sial kat semua orang.
- Aku tak pernah bagi kebaikan pun kat orang sekeliling.
- Aku takde dalam hidup korang lagi bagus, kot?
- Aku banyak bawak masalah je dari bagi kebaikan.
- Ye, aku tak bersyukur. Kau je tau bersyukur. Anak bini kau lagi banyak bersyukur dari aku.
- Hidup aku motif dia satu je, nak senangkan hati semua orang tak payah fikir diri sendiri. Aku tak boleh jadi selfish, rite?
- Benda aku paling bagus buat, rimaskan orang, bazirkan masa orang, susahkan orang, etc.
- Aku sombong, tau dah tu.




Rimas kan tengok aku?,
a-san

a year older, a year wiser.

: alhamdulillah, another year passed well. thanks a lot to the people. you know who you are. may god bless you too :)


: i-chi you're still on the top. remember that. i love you girlfriend


: thanks so much sayang for the wish. i love you and hppy mnthly anni to you too :) it's been 4yrs eh? if u didn't remind me, i wouldn't know it's been that long.




contented enough,
a-san

heh -.-

Date : 29th October 2010
Time : 2.45PM - 4.45PM
Venue : DSI (baru)
Subject : BEL 120, Ashraff Albakri and Zackery Zainal.


"why the rate of absenteeism has increased among university students".
- 15mins left before 2.45pm. second point pun tak siap2 lagi. haishhh. dalam otak bukan fikir nak jawab exam, tapi asyik fikir lagu Beggin dengan Can't Fight This Feeling. haih. haih. haihhhh -.-"

I can't fight this feeling any longer. 

And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow. 

What started out as friendship, 

Has grown stronger. 

I only wish I had the strength to let it show. 

I tell myself that I can't hold OUT forever. 

I said there is no reason for my fear. 

Cause I feel so secure when we're together. 

You give my life direction, 

You make everything so clear. 

And even as I WANDER, 

I'm keeping you in sight. 

You're a candle in the window, 

On a cold, dark winter's night. 

And I'm getting closer than I ever THOUGHT I MIGHT. 

And I can't fight this feeling anymore. 

I've forgotten what I started fighting for. 

It's time to bring this ship into the shore, 

And throw away the oars, forever. 

Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore. 

I've forgotten what I started fighting for. 

And if I have to crawl upon the floor, 

Come crashing through your door, 

Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore. 

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you. 

I've been running round in circles in my mind. 

And it always seems that I'm following you, girl, 

Cause you take me to the places, 

That alone I'd never find. 

And even as I wander, 

I'm keeping you in sight. 

You're a candle in the wind, 

On a cold, dark winter's night. 

And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might. 

And I can't fight this feeling anymore. 

I've forgotten what I started fighting for. 

It's time to bring this ship into the shore, 

And throw away the oars, forever. 

Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore. 

I've forgotten what I started fighting for. 

And if I have to crawl upon the floor, 

Come crashing through your door, 

Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.

Aku tau korang akan baca ni. Congrats la Ashraff Albakriy & Syed Zakhriy Alwi sebab korang dah suceed bagi aku layan lagu ni. First Sheila, sekarang aku. hadoyai. Three cheers for Acap & Zack. hahahahh.




kan bagus kalau soalan exam tu mintak lirik lagu ni,
a-san