cakap sendiri, sendiri dengar. mungkin tidak.

dulu jarang gila kau amik.
boleh bilang lahhh
lepas tu kau dah clean for about 3 months


and thennnnnn,
kau amik balik,


so, apa jadi?
kau nak lagi. dan lagi. dan lagii.
makin teruk.


sekarang,
mungkin kau akan amik lagi kerap,
mungkin kau akan amik lagi banyak dari sebelum ni,
mungkin kau dah tak boleh nak kontrol macam dulu


sedar lah diri san,
kau nak termasuk dengan diorang2 yang mati awal ke?


memang la orang tengok ni benda biasa je
"it's not a big deal laa wehhh"
tapi,
kau tau kan kau bukan orang macam ni.




henti2 kan laahh,
a-san

anekdot

My lecturer kissed me on my cheek and said,

"I hope your jaw gets better soon"

aaaaawww. thank you :')




because my lecturer is cool liddat!,
a-san

in the agony of a barely dislocated jaw

i've got a jammed jaw
oyeye, a jammed jaw
jammed rhymes with jaw (no they don't!)
and my jaw is jammed


i can't move my jaw
no lol
no big LOL
i can't even yawn
huwaaarrgghhhh~ XO
no. not at all.


i cried because of it
because of you my dear jammed jaw
now my cheek is barely swollen
and my upper jaw isn't aligned with my lower jaw already
yay -.-


siot la -.-
cakap pun kurang ni.


and oh yeah!
paling penting sekali,
FML, I'm in pain 






agagagagaaaa,
a-san

tag #006

Shoe Size
6 (EUR 36/ UK 4)


Sexual Orientation:
Straight.


Do you Smoke?
 Yes/No


Do you Drink?
No


Do you Take Drugs?
No


Age you get mistaken for:
17-18 


Have Tattoos?
Naah


Want any tattoos ?
Haram


Got any Piercings?
On my ears


Want any piercings?
Another pair on my ears


Best friend?
Lotsaa 


Relationship status:
Complicated???


Biggest turn ons:
Guys that are funny and have a good body built. 


Biggest turn offs:

PERVERTS, WEIRDOS


Favorite Movie:
The Blair Witch Project


I’ll love you if:
I feel so


Someone you miss:
My daddy kat rumah / My junk kid spec hitam selipar biru. Cant decide between them both. haha


Most traumatic experience:
None that i can remember of


A fact about your personality:
I'm heartless


What I hate most about myself:
My crooked teeth. I want to wear braces sangat2.


What I love most about myself:
My eyes


What I want to be when I get older:
A successful and very much satisfied woman :)


My relationship with my sibling(s):
Crazy. We fight a lot, but in the end we stick up to each other love each other so damn much!


My relationship with my parents:
We're just okay-okay. They're cool on times ;D


My idea of a perfect date:
Zero awkward moments. and oh! lots of hugs ^^


My biggest pet peeves:
Guys trying to have dirty talk with me


A description of the girl/boy I like:
Cool. enuff said. haha.  


A description of the person I dislike the most:
the-I-Know-Everything-Lemme-Tell-You-person


A reason I’ve lied to a friend:
because I have to abide by my parents rules


What I hate the most about college:
Packed schedule -.-


What my last text message says:
sumthing bout "sayang", "harap bby ok.cntrl k", "kalau ada apa msg ok" haha. i dun wanna tell the whole thing.


What words upset me the most:
"hidup takde guna kau ni"


What words make me the best about myself:
"you're cool. you're san laa"


A wish that I’ve wished for repeatedly on 11:11:
Jumpa 11:11 pun jarang


What I find attractive in boys.
looks and builds. haha.


Where I would like to live.
somewhere nice where i can call home, preferably by the beach. lol


One of my insecurities.
Can't think of one rite now.


My childhood career choice.
A doctor. typical rite?


My favorite ice cream.
Caramel almond


Who I wish I could be. 
Miranda Kerr, weeks after she gave birth to Flynn Bloom. and yeah, she has Orlando Bloom. daymnn!


Where I want to be right now.
right beside him <3


The last thing I ate. 
Milna Rusk, original flava


Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately. 
this guy i found somewhere in the web. nyummy.

A random fact about anything? 
I use a lot of hahas in words. haha.

here i share a piece of my literature class :D

Pagi tadi dalam kelas, discussing on the topic of relationship. Relationship and sex, how do we see it. Can we separate between love and sexuality? Love or Lust? A really huge difference between love and lust, especially umur macam aku ni and my lecturer asked the whole class to think back, about our current relationship. He kept assuring us that all of that are just sexual attractions, lusts and not love. Banyak yang bermain kat fikiran aku masa tu. A part of me said yes and a part of me said no.


Perbezaan besar yang ada antara pemahaman orang zaman dulu, dengan generasi muda sekarang ni. Orang dulu tengok relationship ni as a life continuity, they separated the relationship and the love. Tu pasal orang dulu tak kenal pun boleh kahwin jugak kan? But we, the new generations, tend to look sexuality as a way of expressing our love in a relationship. We look it in the perspective of westerners. Why? Because we all have been Americanized. Yeah people, Americanized. terima lah hakikat.


Okay, scratch that. Back to the point, at my age, what is it actually? Love or Lust? haihhh, entah laa. like I said, partly yes and partly no. I'm not the kind of person yang would confess my love if I don't love the person at all, even a slightest affection, but once I confessed it, I wouldn't be bothered to say it again and again and again. Okay, I did that. Lucky you, dude.




ni kira critical thinking ke?,
a-san

aku percaya, kata2 ada semangatnya

"Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright"

yes san, you'll be alright. tahan dulu sakit tu.

from san to san,

a-san

this will cause me a goodnight sleep fer sure :D

*gasps!* :O


daymmnnn! this is just too good. just as im off to bed, and there you are! on my screen. aah!
(guys just wouldnt get this) hahah.

tell me again i-chi, why do you like that brooding bookworm again?

lol,

a-san

tumblr much

(source: boyswho)

luv,

a-san

addikt

dah tengok Hanna?
aku dah addicted dengan ni. but still, Galvanize is my most favourite.
the chemical brothers, you never fail me guys!

can music gives you orgasm? lol,

a-san