thus i found the talent

1.00am-2.30am
texting texting texting, sengih sengih, senyum, gelak sorang, get annoyed, sleepy, penat


7.30am
alarm bunyi, bukak mata, tengok phone, message inbox *okay, lupa lock phone before tidur. baca balik last nite punya messages. BANYAK yang tak boleh recognize. fikir kejap *bila masa aku reply semua ni? -.-"




pernah rasa macam tu tak?
aku selalu. yeah, cool! aku boleh texting dalam tidur! bahahahha XD




meaning that paginya aku bangun lambat ah tu,
a-san

satu entri ya amat panjang because that was fun!

April 1st, 2011

That was a good evening. habiskan masa dengan diorang semua. best :) paling best, happy bday dear i-chi. i love youuuuu. sorry tak wish you, sengaja. hehe.

Dear i-chi,

susah jugak la nak plan you punya bday ni. thanks kat iejatt dengan kak juu sebab dah tolong banyak. at first i macam tak sure the plan's gonna work or not. sebab tgk macam ramai je takde kat TI pastu2 zee pulak last minute cancel tak jadi balik sebab ada test but untunglaa boleh vid call masa tengah lepak. haha. kesian kat abang tuu tak dapat balik celebrate bday buah hati dia. haha. lagi tak sure sebab both of us kerja en, bila je ada masa nak hang out semua. malam macam susah nak keluar. dah plan2, lagi masalah taktau nak buat kat mana. Teluk Intan kan, mana je nak pergi selain kita punya tempat biasa, mcd, kfc, pizza, arena, speedy. in the end, mcd jelah jawabnya sebab senang nak lepak.

the whole day i excited nak jumpa you, nak celebrate you. kat office memang dah tak concentrate nak kerja lahh sebab fikir malam tu. haha. lame kan? tengah2 buat kerja, suddenly i terfikir of something pretty. terus pergi tanya my akak supervisor tu, "kak thana, boss kalau beli bunga selalu kt mana ah?" sort of laa. haha. lunch hour, punch card, amek motor, shoot terus pegi florist. there i saw banyak bunga i taktau you suka bunga apa nak bagi ros macam tak kena nak bagi sunflower besar sangat and then i nampak tu diaaa orange daisy-omg-sangat-lah-pretty ^_^

Dear everyone else,

thanks korang sebab datang. aku ingat takde sape yang balik macam tak seronok je nanti tak ramai. tengok2, ramainyaaa ada :D thanks thanks thanks tho lambat ke apa, without korang, sure plan aku macam bosan je kalau tak. may i mention every each of you;

iejatt

kak juu

faez

pecal

shamie

mio

yienn

alepp

arep

zamm

shafiq

udin

epi

ijad amir

and lagi dua orang budak tuu yang comel2 tuu taktau nama korang. sorry.

To those who weren't there,

sadly korang takde. sure lagi meriah kalau korang ada. tapi apa boleh buat kan, nak belajar, duduk jauh. susah nak balik. takpe2. lain kali balik la. haha.

err taktau nak kata apa lagi sebab otak-currently-not-working-to-do-any-writing. so tengok gambar jelah;

nak nyalakan lilin tu, an epic fail.

describing iejatt: one word, comel :)

okay, ni i-chi

from left; arep, pecal, rien, rand

front; moshibot, i-chi, a-san, rien
back; kak juu, rand

yea, korang hotstuff. tau2.

To the photographers,

sesuka hati aku je guna gambar korang kan? haha




and oh! bday i-chi ver. iejatt MOSHibot. dgn ver. mior rand. ver. 2.0 tkde. check out theirs. :D

happy 19th bday sweet heart;

a-san

i want a kodak moment with you because having the time together is really hard for us. one is enuff. one that can make me remember at you when i miss you. one that i can remember about the times when i spent time with you. the time that i could hardly get.


sorry if i'm being too cheesy,
a-san

hmm :|

i wonder, how does it feel to smile as much as you can. i never had the chance to feel so. it'll always be the shut-my-lips smile cuz i'm....




an awfully-crooked-teeth one,
a-san

masalah mencari kata-kata

satu masalah yang teramat penting bagi aku.
masalah mencari kata-kata yang betul.
kata-kata untuk menyampaikan keinginan.
keinginan dengan keikhlasan.
keikhlasan yang datangnya dari hati kecil seorang umat.


aku tahu aku bukan sebaik-baik umat.
kebergantungan aku padaNya aku harapkan sentiasa.
kerana Dia satu-satunya untuk dihadap tanpa mengira waktu.
tapi, fikir balik masalah aku sebelumnya.
kata-kata yang sukar untuk aku pinta kepadaNya.
susahnya mencari yang betul, risaunya terpinta yang salah.
akhirnya, kembali pada ulang-ulangku setiap kali doa,


ampuni dosa-dosa, 
panjangkanlah iman, 
permurahkanlah rezeki, 
berikan hidayah, 
lindungilah dari segala bala bencana, 
sejahterakanlah hidup 
(untuk aku, ibu bapaku, seluruh ahli keluarga, sahabat-sahabat, dan dia yang aku sayangi)
....
amin, amin ya-rabbal alamin.


mahu aku pohon yang lebih,
tak termampu,
aku bukan umat yang taat padaNya,
dosa tak terkira,
malu meminta lebih daripadaNya.


aku bukan sebaik-baik umat,
tapi selalu ingatkan diri,
jangan melampaui batas terakhir
jangan biarkan agama jadi permainan
jangan neraka jahannam jadi tempat di akhirat.




masih banyak dosa,
a-san

i hate #145

i hate when they do that "peace-in-front-tha-mouth" pose.


- you know kan, now dah jadi macam trend when people take photos while doing that "peace-in-front-of-tha-mouth" pose. i hate it cuz i know what does it mean by doing that. people that i know in reality (girls mostly) love to do that pose. come on lah, do you even know what it means? you thought "oh sangat cool!", "aku cun ah buat pose camni". ish. hate to see em (the act, not the person). don't be so foolish. i admit that i even did that before but when i did it, i really meant what i'm doing of to the person i'm talking to and i never done it for "suka suki amek gamba". think wisely before u do something.

I'm Sorry.

That's all I can say to you. For all what I've done, for all what I've said.
Just know this, whatever it is, no matter what you think about me, I love you more than you will ever know.
I really hope that I can be with you right now, but I can't.
I just hope that the time when I can be with you will soon come and just pray for it by the meantime. Amin.




ily syg,
a-san