aku rindu

aku rindu masa itu
dalam rumah papan kampung
bising hujan menghentam atap zink
malap cahaya mentol pijar
dengan bau minyak tanah dari pelita kaki

sambil minum kopi o pekat
panas dicicah biskut kering empat segi
dengan atok dan opah
sumpah aku rindu ni semua
dan aku rindu mereka dua
al-fatihah dengan air mata.

rindu ini kuat sangat

afna16122012

Blessed Friday Night

Finishing reciting Yaasin after maghrib prayer today,  i just realised that my Quran recitation is quite rusty.
Oh my.
After all these time, i read it very poorly.

I really need a serious improvement on this,
a-san

life planning

having to spend the days without my netbook which i lent to zamm for purposes, i had a lot of time to do a lot of thinking. basically because i was bored and have nothing else to do other than thinking.

so i thought about my basic life plans that i have been constructing since i finished schooling.
they are simple actually.

#1 finish my degree study
#2 get posted to a school as nearest as i could to my hometown
#3 three years teaching until confirmation
#4 search for any scholarship with KPM to further my studies oversea, preferably in UK*
#5 get a master
#6 continue teaching, be a lecturer if get the chance
#7 continue studying while teaching and specialize either in English Literature or Linguistics*
#8 get married in between #2 and #7
#9 collect my own assets starting from #2
#10 travel around with my significant other*
#11 have my own family
#12 continue studies
#13 earn, spend, save and invest enough money to retire comfortably by late 50s
#14 ...
#15 get closer to God (THIS IS A MUST!!!)

*subjects due to change

well, that's about it. what i want to do for the rest of my life.
but, for knowing myself real good than other people, i think the reality will turn out less interesting than what i have planned. lol


not a good planner,
a-san

these happen on me most of the time

#1

#2

inspired by the homies,

a-san

p.s. pardon me for the incorrect usage of memes. im no good at this hehe

a message from the past

so today i spent about 15 mins cleaning my personal cabinet yang dah berhabuk teruk. that cabinet was left for about years sebab last skali pakai buat simpan buku berapa tahun lepas. there where i kept my piles of spm stuffs and a bulk of uitm stuffs that sent me down to memory lane :')

the best thing, masa tengah kemas2, i found a stash of sampul duit raya that i don't remember keeping of. habit aku dulu simpan sampul duit raya kosong lepas dapat tu. meaning that sampul2 kosong tu semua dah bertahun duduk dalam kabinet tu, sekarang tinggal nak buang jelah.dunno why, gatal tangan pegi bukak sampul2 tu semua, 
homaigadddd ada duit ._.

haha. cool! aku tengah sesak duit ni and cukup malas nak pegi pekan cari atm machine.

and that remembered me, masa budak sekolah dulu rasanya aku saja simpan duit tu semua kot2 nak pakai masa takde duit. lepastu terus terlupa duit tu ada aku simpan dalam kabinet.

so i puji that budak-sekolah-me "wahh anis, that was a good thought" and pat myself on the shoulder. hahah.

^___________________^


yay,
a-san

How I Handle My Examinations

These are the few bits of how i deal with examinations this semester.

Warning: DO NOT TRY THIS UNLESS YOU'RE READY TO DEAL WITH THE CONSEQUENCES


Before:
1. Procrastinating at my best. No matter how long the gaps are between each paper, in the end it will always be the night before the paper that the books and notes be read.

2. Chuck marathon. You see, less than a week I have finished watching Chuck from the first season till the third. All complete episodes. Not leaving any boring episode not watched.

3. Sleep. No. Hibernate.

4. Put all the efforts when doing assignments because they are the backups.


During:
1. Sit on the designated place.

2. Keep calm and answer all the questions.

3. Time's up! Pack all the stuffs.

4. Leave the examination hall.

5. NEVER talk to anyone about the examination ever again to avoid heartbreak.


After:
1. EAT. Because a hungry man is an angry man.

2. Sleep. All the energy stored has been used up by the brain. Penat woi nak fikir. So, it's time to recharge.

3. Realised that the paper was answered carelessly.

4. Do not freak out.

5. Hope all is well and oh, now put all the hope in the previously done assignments cause obviously i will barely pass the difficult papers.

matilaaaa

(-________-")

imma dead meat,

a-san

nombor dan angka

sekali dulu tu ikutkan aku betul2 lupa hari tu hari ulang tahun aku kalau tak bukan celcom yang hantar ucap selamat pastu bagi free calls. dan ikutkan, aku tak rasa nak sambut pun ulang tahun aku tiap tahun. dan aku rasa tu cuma perubahan pada nombor bila kau nak isi maklumat dan cuma buat kau rasa satu tahun lagi dekat dengan mati.


mula berhenti sambut ulang tahun sendiri dari kecik dulu bila pun aku dah tak ingat. nak cerita kat orang bila aku lahir pun rasa macam tak ada signifikan. lagi menarik macam tu kot. biar kau sendiri fikir nak panggil aku guna adik ke, kak ke, hoi ke, apa pun bolehhh (jangan panggil aku yang bukan2 sudah lah)


tahun ni rasa lain. ulang tahun aku kali ni selalu main dalam kepala otak. ulang tahun kali ni digit depan aku dah tukar. tapi aku taknak nombor tu tukar. aku rasa tak cukup sedia lagi nak jadi dewasa.
kalau ikutkan aku taknak jadi dewasa.
jadi dewasa tu susah.
jadi dewasa tu dah pernah aku rasa sikit dulu.
jadi dewasa tu banyak tanggungjawab.
jadi dewasa tu banyak halnya.


pokoknya, tiap tahun aku tak ada keinginan nak sambut ulang tahun pun.

tapi terima kasih kawan, ulang tahun yang lepas korang buat aku terharu. pandawani cakap kat aku terharu tu ada rasa nak nangeh sikit2. memang rasa nak nangeh sikit2 haritu :')

yang kena ignore sampai kena kunci kat luar dgn aku masa malam ulang tahun lepas tu aku mintak ampunnn sangat2. yang tu aku mengaku apa aku buat tu agak melampau.


close your eyes. make a wish. blow the candles,
a-san