i want a kodak moment with you because having the time together is really hard for us. one is enuff. one that can make me remember at you when i miss you. one that i can remember about the times when i spent time with you. the time that i could hardly get.


sorry if i'm being too cheesy,
a-san

hmm :|

i wonder, how does it feel to smile as much as you can. i never had the chance to feel so. it'll always be the shut-my-lips smile cuz i'm....




an awfully-crooked-teeth one,
a-san

masalah mencari kata-kata

satu masalah yang teramat penting bagi aku.
masalah mencari kata-kata yang betul.
kata-kata untuk menyampaikan keinginan.
keinginan dengan keikhlasan.
keikhlasan yang datangnya dari hati kecil seorang umat.


aku tahu aku bukan sebaik-baik umat.
kebergantungan aku padaNya aku harapkan sentiasa.
kerana Dia satu-satunya untuk dihadap tanpa mengira waktu.
tapi, fikir balik masalah aku sebelumnya.
kata-kata yang sukar untuk aku pinta kepadaNya.
susahnya mencari yang betul, risaunya terpinta yang salah.
akhirnya, kembali pada ulang-ulangku setiap kali doa,


ampuni dosa-dosa, 
panjangkanlah iman, 
permurahkanlah rezeki, 
berikan hidayah, 
lindungilah dari segala bala bencana, 
sejahterakanlah hidup 
(untuk aku, ibu bapaku, seluruh ahli keluarga, sahabat-sahabat, dan dia yang aku sayangi)
....
amin, amin ya-rabbal alamin.


mahu aku pohon yang lebih,
tak termampu,
aku bukan umat yang taat padaNya,
dosa tak terkira,
malu meminta lebih daripadaNya.


aku bukan sebaik-baik umat,
tapi selalu ingatkan diri,
jangan melampaui batas terakhir
jangan biarkan agama jadi permainan
jangan neraka jahannam jadi tempat di akhirat.




masih banyak dosa,
a-san

i hate #145

i hate when they do that "peace-in-front-tha-mouth" pose.


- you know kan, now dah jadi macam trend when people take photos while doing that "peace-in-front-of-tha-mouth" pose. i hate it cuz i know what does it mean by doing that. people that i know in reality (girls mostly) love to do that pose. come on lah, do you even know what it means? you thought "oh sangat cool!", "aku cun ah buat pose camni". ish. hate to see em (the act, not the person). don't be so foolish. i admit that i even did that before but when i did it, i really meant what i'm doing of to the person i'm talking to and i never done it for "suka suki amek gamba". think wisely before u do something.

I'm Sorry.

That's all I can say to you. For all what I've done, for all what I've said.
Just know this, whatever it is, no matter what you think about me, I love you more than you will ever know.
I really hope that I can be with you right now, but I can't.
I just hope that the time when I can be with you will soon come and just pray for it by the meantime. Amin.




ily syg,
a-san

all about him, him, him

eh, why la susah sangat nak keluarkan you out of my system?  you ada ke, you takde ke, 24/7 it's all about you je lahh -.-" paling teruk, when i'm all alone and bored, fer sure lah fikir pasal midvalley je. yeah, MIDVALLEY. you know why and i miss your hugs the most. oi, what are we actually? do tell me please. when you're not there, i always think of you. when you are already there, you don't know how glad i am tho i do not show it to you. it's been 4 years kan like you said *do correct me if i salah buat maths* if satu hari tak nampak you (tak kira lah in reality or virtually) that day seems not right to me. then bila at the end of the day, you go online (at last!) i rasa cukup2 senang. nampak tu pun dah cukup la :)


people might say, you're not the only guy in this world and i always act like i really look up to you GREATLY. the latter one is true but currently, you are the only one lah cuz this girl aint playin all flirty with other guys when there's already a guy in the system and this brings up point number two which is not correct at all. NAY. me do not act like that tho they all see me like that, cuz me know, berdosa to think like that. betul boleh fikir macam tu, kalau yang difikir tu yang SATU kat atas tu.


may you have a really really good health in future cuz by looking at your health condition rite now, idk what to say bout that. it's just that i'm really worried about you.


you may not know this, but i have hopes on you. i ask Allah all the good things for you in my prayers every time after solat. yes, i do that. 




TWO more years to go, that's a really long time maaannnnn. you sure you can tahan sampai that dua tahun? i know i can.




you're really "something" lah,
a-san

CMYK: OMG! it's here :D

at last, she's mine! muahahahhahahahaha *evil laugh* XD

so suka,

a-san