heh -.-

Date : 29th October 2010
Time : 2.45PM - 4.45PM
Venue : DSI (baru)
Subject : BEL 120, Ashraff Albakri and Zackery Zainal.


"why the rate of absenteeism has increased among university students".
- 15mins left before 2.45pm. second point pun tak siap2 lagi. haishhh. dalam otak bukan fikir nak jawab exam, tapi asyik fikir lagu Beggin dengan Can't Fight This Feeling. haih. haih. haihhhh -.-"

I can't fight this feeling any longer. 

And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow. 

What started out as friendship, 

Has grown stronger. 

I only wish I had the strength to let it show. 

I tell myself that I can't hold OUT forever. 

I said there is no reason for my fear. 

Cause I feel so secure when we're together. 

You give my life direction, 

You make everything so clear. 

And even as I WANDER, 

I'm keeping you in sight. 

You're a candle in the window, 

On a cold, dark winter's night. 

And I'm getting closer than I ever THOUGHT I MIGHT. 

And I can't fight this feeling anymore. 

I've forgotten what I started fighting for. 

It's time to bring this ship into the shore, 

And throw away the oars, forever. 

Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore. 

I've forgotten what I started fighting for. 

And if I have to crawl upon the floor, 

Come crashing through your door, 

Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore. 

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you. 

I've been running round in circles in my mind. 

And it always seems that I'm following you, girl, 

Cause you take me to the places, 

That alone I'd never find. 

And even as I wander, 

I'm keeping you in sight. 

You're a candle in the wind, 

On a cold, dark winter's night. 

And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might. 

And I can't fight this feeling anymore. 

I've forgotten what I started fighting for. 

It's time to bring this ship into the shore, 

And throw away the oars, forever. 

Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore. 

I've forgotten what I started fighting for. 

And if I have to crawl upon the floor, 

Come crashing through your door, 

Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.

Aku tau korang akan baca ni. Congrats la Ashraff Albakriy & Syed Zakhriy Alwi sebab korang dah suceed bagi aku layan lagu ni. First Sheila, sekarang aku. hadoyai. Three cheers for Acap & Zack. hahahahh.




kan bagus kalau soalan exam tu mintak lirik lagu ni,
a-san

deep down inside

*created this with syiro last year*

Deep down inside, this is what im thinking / i want of.

thats one terrible drawing,
a-san

Bangun pagi, kepala sakit, rasa berat nak angkat. Rasa lemah sangat. Makin hari makin lemah. Sampai bila nak macam ni? Cepat2 lah habis semua ni >.<

sakit.

satu perkara paling aku benci, sakit.
bukan bila aku sakit. tapi bila orang lain sakit.
bila orang lain sakit, luluh rasa hati.
lagi terasa luluh bilamana yang aku sayang itu sakit.
luluh sebab aku rasa tak berguna sebab yang dulu berlaku.
tak berguna, tak berguna rasanya diri ini tak tau apa yang perlu dilaku.


bila yang aku sayang sakit dulu,
aku cuma beri simpati. bukan aku tahu apa nak ditolong sebab fikir aku waktu itu sakit biasa saja. aah.
aku buat biasa sampai satu saat yang aku sayang itu menggelupur tak berdaya.
kaku. aku lihat dan lihat saja. tersentak.


bila yang aku sayang sakit dulu,
aku lihat saja. bukan aku tahu apa nak dibuat.
aku lihat dan lihat dan lihat. setiap hari. setiap pagi. setiap waktu.
sakitnya bertambah teruk. sakitnya tidak tersembuh. sakitnya tunggu waktu.
hingga tiba waktu itu, hembuslah nafas akhirnya. saat itu sangat teruk rasanya.
aku tak ada guna, tak ada menolong.


saat ini depan mata, yang aku sayang sedang sakit.
macam bodoh aku rasa. masih lagi tak berguna diri ini.
cepatlah sembuh. aku pulang tidak terdengar hilai tawanya.


kenapa tak ada gunanya aku ini?
kenapa aku mampu tangis saja melihat sakit?
kenapa bukan aku yang sakit?


waktu ini ada lagi yang persoal laku aku,
membising bila lihatnya sakit,
bebel tak berhenti bila tahunya sakit.
aku bising, aku bebel sebabnya aku benci lihat yang aku sayang sakit.
risau nak mati. fikir yang bukan2.
tak mahu lagi rasa apa yang aku rasa dulu. lihat yang aku sayang tak terdaya.
takutnya aku tak sempat menolong yang aku sayang lagi macam dulu.
biar aku yang sakit, merasa sakit, menahan sakit. 
jangan yang aku sayang itu sakit.




hmm,
a-san

How I Waste My Revision Week

One week of study leave. Okay, let see, how i spent it "wisely" so far. lol


Monday, 18.10.2010
- hopped on the bus around 6.45pm. a boring journey but at least there were fiqah, sheila, bella, azman, umair, am, najwa and wanraf
- a few mins before arriving, fiqah saw sumthing so so cuteeeeee and adorable XD "weih, aku nampak rabbit ah". i was like, "manaaaaa???" hahaha. a girl-dude carrying a cute little bunny on her lap. she kept the bunny in a bag. fiqah asked that girl-dude "akak, sape name?" and she replied, "uhm, tak payah la akak. panggil oja je". played with her bunny, daniel. sheila was the most excited one cause she's a true rabbit lover. haha.
- found out, oja was the person me and fiqah had been ushering in the campus. on the way to class, when she passed upon us, we'll both serentak akan cakap "comelnyaaaaaaaa" dengan muka camni -> XD (sort of la)
- thinking of it again, on the bus, which one actually yang kita kata comel ah fiqah? oja or daniel? haha
- at sentral, jepa arrived to pick us up. went straight to forum19. lepak2, shisha, burger, around 1am to fiqah's at ttdi.


p.s. : jepa and fiqah, you're really good at persuading people eh. aku takde mood nak shisha malam tu pun korang boleh pujuk2 sampai aku shisha. haih.


Tuesday, 19.10.2010
- went to midvalley with fiqah and haris
- met with the guy ♥♥♥
- went to the movie. watched "Buried". uhmm, kinda boring that story. about 2hrs of same actor, same setting, the same thing but ryan reynolds. takpe ah. haha.
- a late lunch with fiqah and id. no haris, he went back early cause he's going to paramore. jealous so much ouh >.< you two really wanted to kenakan me ah. dah tau my communication skill sangat lemah dan teruk lagi suruh pegi panggil waiter tu. pfftt.
- from midvalley, the three of us went to bukit jalil. a very long journey + peak hour. uhh -.-
- the ride back home, with fiqah and id. id stopped at sentral and that was the last moment i was with him :'( well, moving on, fiqah and me continued our journey till kelana jaya. waited for shuttle bus to ikano. kat ikano we saw sumthing and was like, omg! sale! hahah. spent the last minutes before closing hour browsing around. went to the curve and waited for fiqah's dad to pick us up.


p.s : sayang, sorry i've troubled you a lot that day. dah tau you tak larat lagi i ajak gi jalan jauh2 and now i've already missed you so much, i miss to hug you closely, i miss the time when you hugged me from the back, i miss how you held me when i didnt feel comfortable in the train, i miss your words telling me to have a safe ride home and to take care of myself, i miss laughing by looking at you so eagerly watching that malay drama with fasha sandha acting in it. oh, and that kiss on my forehead? lol.


p.p.s : fiqah, let's do that blonde, ghetto girl and asian guy acting lagi. hahahaha.


Wednesday 20.10.2010
- jepa picked up the three of us from ttdi. jepa, fiqah, haris and anis went to sunway. met up with sheila and bella over there. ice skating. yay :D serious aku rindu nak skate. rollerblade atas almari dah berhabuk, tak sempat nk main pun petang2. sangat2 seronok tapi tak puas. haha. nothing would ever be enough for me. gelojoh :p
- after ice skating went to baskin robbins cafe. 5monthversarry of fiqah and jepa. awww. jepa made an ice cream cake of her favourite flavour. sedap sedap sedap =d
- a late lunch with sheila, bella and haris. we left fiqah and jepa to have their own time together ;) window shopped at f21. kinda fun bringing that guy for window shopping. he was like, "camna baju tu?", "yg mane depan yg mane belakang weh?", "wuish bajuu.." hahaha. after that gi kacau jepa tengah kerja at baskin robbins.
- went back to ttdi around 8pm or so.

Thursday, 21.10.2010

- back home to t.i :D

- missed my bus but luckily the next bus ada. haih.

- barely one hour sampai rumah, keluar with i-chi. went to arena square. met up with the home boys, zee, shamie, shafiq and mio. lepak2 tengok diorang skate and balik.

that what i've done so far, no revision nor studying at all. bagus ah. 

haih,

a-san

satu breakdown

dah lama benda ni bermain dalam kepala otak aku. sampai satu tahap, aku tak mampu lagi tanggung. penamatnya tadi, breakdown setelah sekian lama. yang pernah alami masa breakdown aku, haha, satu pengalaman untuk korang lah.


tangis iring breakdown, dengan penuh esak, orang tua aku cari. bukan selalu aku nak menangis. cuma pada mereka dua. teruk tangis esak kali ini. tak mampu berhenti, tak tau jugak kenapa sampaikan ma pujuk pun tak boleh. bual panjang anak dan ibu, kali ini aku tekad. ini tamatnya. bukan ini yang aku mampu. bukan ini yang aku puas.


dapat kata putus, tak juga berhenti lagi. tak tahu apa yang buat aku jadi macam tu. lekas2 gerak, ambil wudhuk, sembahyang. tenang. terus diam. hmphhh... lega. rasa lega dapat luah yang lama dipendam. kata putus, sudahlah. lagi berapa minggu saja nak diteruskan.




dah la,
a-san

hahaha. sure ada yang terasa ni.

anyone? aku tau ramai. hahahaha

"babble babble bitch" - id

omigod! omigod! omigaaaawwwwdddd!


- i hate acc -.-"


- im in the wrong pathway rite now, think so


- apparently, the Ma doesn't like the King, but like i care duhh.


- Thom, come home pleaseee :(


- final exam, so much of being "budak dekan" lahh. heh


- repeater-soon-to-be


- im a malay who loves english so much. yeah, hate me please.


- damn. damn. damn


- gi jahanam la.


- in need of Holga 120CFN so fuckin badly rite now


- i have trust issue with my own mother, nice one! :D


- you're just a nu-b lah. wake up!


- i miss you sayang, dah lama tak jumpa :(


- house hunting at SIDEC, ada rumah kosong tak wei?


- woot! my daddy's watching america's next top model. lol


- guess what, i've learnt a new word from fiqah. "bullpoop" hahah.


- i just found out, i have a few home boys by the name of : rien, meerul, zuhair, zaim, zam, 
shafiq, shamie and a few others. btw, do you guys even wanna be my home boys? cause i do.


- kakak, im gonna be your bride's maid en en ennn? XP


- qie's coming to UiTM next sunday. yay :D


- I luvvvvvvvv clarinet ^_^




his babbling bitch,
a-san